Send Someone to Fail With Me

If one were able to shut off honesty and simply agree with the majority, life could be much easier. Especially in theologically oriented settings this could be true. This is not to say that ones who find themselves in agreement with the majority are have opted out for an easier path or are being dishonest. Clearly there are many wonderful people of faith who have authentically arrived at various positions with varying popularity in Christendom. At no point should we disparage a person's authentic faith just becuase it apears to follow path of the common majority.
There is a position outside the theological party lines that I often wish I could honestly assimilate out of or just forget altogether:
To value the self-giving love found at the center of Christianity and the cross is not a choice that one would make out of convenience or for personal gain of any sort. It is a choice that puts one at the most desperate mercy of God on two levels.

First; to honestly follow Christ's example of the self-giving love of the cross brings one to despair because on some level everyone knows that through this self giving love of Christ when actualized in our lives will get a person crucified in all kinds of ways and that their only hope is to become utterly dependant upon God to resurrect them at a point which is beyond their reality.

Second; Perhaps more personally challenging yet, is that to value this self giving love of Christ will bring a person to be intimately aware of their own perpetual failure. By any measure, this is a lonely place to be.

Blessed are those who can be among the fellowship of others who also strive for and together ultimately fail at becoming this vessel of self-giving love found at the cross. Far worse are those who are alone and abandoned in their quest of the cross and do not receive the blessing and support of God’s graceful community in this quest. Either way, God on the cross is there in flesh abandoned and suffering with them in the only authentic and pure self-giving love the world would ever know. Imagine how alone that felt. “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” For twenty years, I have shuddered with tears each time I heard these words read on Good Friday. My Lord, either assimilate me to an authentic and easier path of faith or give me the strength to join you alone at this cross. I fail perpetually, and even if I one day I must continue alone and abandoned as you were at the cross, let me not rest among comforts and fellowships of cheap grace we bestow upon ourselves. Let me find my only solace in the grace that allows one to continue walking alone toward your gift of the cross. I can honestly see no other path worth taking, but Lord I need help in carrying this load, I can not continue to fail alone.

Grace

The original post on grace has been changed. As I further thought about the original posting titled "Grace" and what it was that I was asking about, I have realized that I did not suffer for any righteous boldness but rather I suffered because I have been an arrogant jerk. Like in the great tradition of a greek tradgedy, I spoke of the harm that other peoples' lack of grace would cause me, and then tradgically and ironically expirianced the harm from lack of grace through my own failiour to show grace toward others. Thus for the two or three people who may read this, it is important to note that the following original post should be seen as only a post that was written out of frusteration prior to the important life changing realization that I was wrong all along.
P.F.

How does one respond to a situation where you feel deeply betrayed by something you have shown grace toward? Something you felt was wrong all along, and knew was going to continue to hurt others. What do you do, when that wich you had always thought was wrong now comes back to work its harm and effects personaly upon you. I once heard someone say that "the trust doesn't come back". I want to say that the trust should never have been the issue. The Christian response to being personaly hurt and betrayed is not one that should spring a wealth of distrust, the only response of eternal worth in the Christian faith is grace.
How does one respond in grace to what is wrong? When an action, system, or teaching does active harm upon others or yourself, what is the right response in grace?