Being Wrong
A person will often arrive at a position where they must reevaluate themselves and their stance on certain things that have begun to define their identity.
There are probably several directions this reevaluation can take a person. One common direction and often the first reaction is to take a direction in defense of what makes up a person's identity. “I am right, and the rest of the people should learn to accept that” Thus a person will often construct nice sounding reasons of why they must hold their stance rather than reevaluate and perhaps accept their own wrongness. A complicated layer of righteous sounding reasoning is liable to come from a person at this stage. While all people are partially in this stage. I have come to realize the depths of how captivated I have been in this stage.
The second stage seems to be critical reevaluation towards one self rather than defense of the self’s identity. From time to time, the ground beneath me seems to realign as I discover that I myself have been seriously wrong and that to make matters worse I have indeed reasoned out successive layers and structures of self righteous wrongness on top of the original wrongs without ever doing much critical reflection. As long as the wrong answers one gives themself continue to work out with desired results there is no motivation to get to this second stage of having to dig backward into reevaluating one’s own personal wrongs. I have discovered that I am now in one of those positions currently.
I have slowly been arriving at, and have now come to a point of very serious reevaluation and realization that any and perhaps all criticisms leveled against my church family via blog or in personal conversation during the past year have either been communicated so poorly and gracelessly that they were effectually wrong, or were substantively wrong at the core. In looking back, I have gone from feeling like a coward for not speaking up to choosing the path of an arrogant hypocrite.
It is an exciting time to be now open to reevaluating all the places I have gone wrong.
There are probably several directions this reevaluation can take a person. One common direction and often the first reaction is to take a direction in defense of what makes up a person's identity. “I am right, and the rest of the people should learn to accept that” Thus a person will often construct nice sounding reasons of why they must hold their stance rather than reevaluate and perhaps accept their own wrongness. A complicated layer of righteous sounding reasoning is liable to come from a person at this stage. While all people are partially in this stage. I have come to realize the depths of how captivated I have been in this stage.
The second stage seems to be critical reevaluation towards one self rather than defense of the self’s identity. From time to time, the ground beneath me seems to realign as I discover that I myself have been seriously wrong and that to make matters worse I have indeed reasoned out successive layers and structures of self righteous wrongness on top of the original wrongs without ever doing much critical reflection. As long as the wrong answers one gives themself continue to work out with desired results there is no motivation to get to this second stage of having to dig backward into reevaluating one’s own personal wrongs. I have discovered that I am now in one of those positions currently.
I have slowly been arriving at, and have now come to a point of very serious reevaluation and realization that any and perhaps all criticisms leveled against my church family via blog or in personal conversation during the past year have either been communicated so poorly and gracelessly that they were effectually wrong, or were substantively wrong at the core. In looking back, I have gone from feeling like a coward for not speaking up to choosing the path of an arrogant hypocrite.
It is an exciting time to be now open to reevaluating all the places I have gone wrong.
posted by Post_Fidelitas at 7:44 AM
1 Comments:
Hey,
How's Spanish going?
I am not sure what is going on with you, but it's good to critically examine your own belief. Recently I have reached the conclusion that most sufferings and injustice in the world are not actually caused by people who are bad but rather by people who try to be good.
I didn't reach the critical stage in my life until I was about 29 years old. You are couple years ahead of me. It took me awhile because I was so busy all the time. Most people never reach this critical stage because they never stop being so busy until they get too old, then they just need something quick and easy.
If you want to take a break, check out my fallible opinion in my blog.
http://leighteabing.blogspot.com/
Hopefully my next blog entry will sound more positive about certain aspect so that I don't appear so critical all the time.
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