This Beautiful Mess (non-audible mix tape track 1)

This Beautiful Mess cuts me to the core with words I often feel but am unable to articulate. I am not suggesting them as "the greatest song writers", I know they may not resonate with everyone. However, they are song writers who seem to have felt the same tension of a calling and faith as in my life, it is one I often wish would leave me alone.
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Weighed and found wanting
Spelled out on each wall
My name is on your list
I won't get away with this
There's blood on my hands
There's blood on your face
Throw me into the well
I'm as guilty as hell

Lost and found again
I'm found and still lost
Get me off of your list
I'm not cut out for this
Guilty is written all over my face
Cast me into the waves
Send me in one of your whales

I am on the verge of a bankruptcy
What is it that you could possibly want from me
and what is it that you give me credit for
I've got nothing here that's not already yours

Weighed and found wanting
Spelled out on each wall
Your word against my fist
I'm not cut out this

Guilty is written all over my face
Pull me out of the lake
Now my faith is on the wane
For me ten others
Ten others for me
Take my seat it's free
Let this cup pass me
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